Rumors are the life blood of society. Some rumors are spread by mistake and purely unintentional, while others are spread purposely. Society feeds on rumors; for without rumors, there would be nothing really to discuss.
Ugly rumors are spread by people with a vendetta, whose hearts are filled with hate. I know this. I may have done so myself. I am after all only human. But, I do try to refrain.
There is always one rumor flying around about me. And, I am very well aware of what it is. I am always rumored to be a whore. And, of course, it is not true. I have in fact only had four sexual partners. For my age range, that is a very low number.
So, why then, do people say I am a whore? Because I hang out with the male gender too much. Plain and simple. I hang out with males, because female mentality is beyond my scope of tolerance. I think more along the male mindset, then I do female. Hell, I act more like a male than I do female. Being around men has just proven to be less drama and emotional. Being around males is just more chill and relaxing. We play video games, talk, watch movies, joke around, etc. It's hard to find females that do the same without having a sudden debate about a relationship and morals.
So I like to talk to and hang out with males. And, it threatens other females. It makes them think that I am after their partner. No. No. I don't want your partner. I just want to chill and be friends. If I wanted your partner sexually. I do like to believe that I would not attempt anything because I frown upon cheating.
But, I am not to be trusted, according to those females, because men are not to be trusted. And, therefore I cannot be trusted to be left alone with a male. When in fact, I have slept in the same bed with men and never so much as shared a kiss, let alone felt up or cuddled or had sex.
I can sit here and defend myself until I am blue in the face. But, rumors are rumors and people listen to those more than truth. Everyone has "proof" or "statements" supporting rumors. But the fact is most rumors are lies, no matter what support they have. And, it is pettiness to continue with rumors when deep down you know the truth.
Rumors are damaging to say the least. They can take down innocent people. They can hurt people that don't deserve it. Fact is, only petty people spread lies and rumors. And, it is always people you only "somewhat" know, because people that do know you fully are either your friends who disbelieve the rumors or the betrayers that started it.
I have nothing to hide. I have no reasons to lie. I make it a point to not give cause for speculation because I want to avoid drama at all costs. I despise webs of deceit and would rather not ever play a role in weaving them. But, I did. I did spin one, because I trusted the wrong person. And from trusting the wrong person much hate has been brewed because of the lies. Fingers point left and right blaming him and her. When in reality, if we all just refused to lie and pretend none of this would have happened. And there would be no rumors or scathing remarks on anyone's integrity.
Friday, February 6, 2015
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
What is "Love of my Life"
What does "love of my life" mean? It has already been established that the majority of the human race throws round the word "love" when they don't mean it; but now I find myself hearing "love of my life" more frequently now.
How has "love" become to diminished in meaning? Back in the days of black and white views on morals, love was only said, when it was truly meant. Now, in this day and age of technicolor and racing pulses and impulses, love is thrown around and definitely does not mean anything anymore. Love- "real" love is dead.
But now, people are throwing around "love of my life" and it is starting to piss me off. Society has already decreased the value of other terms of endearment and affection, now "love of my life" is well out the door.
Why does it bother me so much? Because that phrase is coming out of the mouth of young people. Teens, young adults, middle-aged adults- they are all saying "love of my life". If you are not grey or white in the head and over the age of 50 at least- you have not lived your damned life. You are still alive- not on your death bed (at least I hope not), you cannot say if someone is the "love of your life" if you have not lived it yet.
I get it, you want to be romantic. You have these deep feelings for someone and the only way to convey it is to use the most powerful word we know- which is "love". But, the subconscious of society has already realized the damage it has done to the word, so now we alter it a bit. We've altered "love" to "love of my life" to try and give it back the purity it used to have.
All for nothing. Because, just as its core word, that phrase is now being misused.
Couples always want to say, their partner is the love of their life. They planned on marriage; they are married; they have kids together; they grew up together. Sadly, that doesn't mean anything.
The only way you can trust the words "love of my life" from someone else's mouth is if you are by the bedside of a dying person; or, if you are the child of a person, because all children should naturally be the love of any parent's life.
I used to believe in the purity of love. I, myself, refrain from using it unless I am sure of my feelings. I am never the first to say "I love you". I will always wait no matter how long it takes, because for me, love is still rare and important. You should only love people that are a part of your soul. And, you cannot let anyone- just anyone, be a part of you.
The love of your life should be someone you spent your whole life searching for, waiting for. The love of your life should make you feel and think in ways you never felt. The love of your life never disappears, even in death. The love of your life is unique. The love of your life is not easy to come by. You need to earn it, because finding it and acknowledging and accepting it- is a journey.
Saturday, November 8, 2014
Single Mother Fears
The reality of being a single mother hits me the most when I'm alone in the sonogram room. I have so much joy and love for this little thing inside of me, and I cannot share it. It's not easy- knowing you are in this alone.
Yes, I have family willing to help me with the process, but they cannot help me with the loneliness that I feel. I cannot share the joys of watching the baby grow with its father. And, my mother is completely unsupportive- especially emotionally. I am on my own.
I could take the cowards way out. I could abort and kill this life in me. But, that is not me. I don't kill. I am prepared to do what I can and must to survive and provide for my child. They did not ask to be brought to this world. But I was granted this gift to carry this being into life and I will protect it.
No one is ever ready to be a parent. The thoughts that run through my head scare me and they petrify me. I do have plans but at the same time I don't know what to do. I wish I had the baby's father to stand with me. I wish I had my mother to support me. And, it kills me inside to feel so alone. Because that is my greatest fear to be alone, but now so many more fears involving the baby are springing up. What if I do something wrong and the baby comes out unhealthy? What if I choose the wrong schools? What if the baby takes after its father? All of those ideas scare me- and so many more thoughts rage in my head.
And, somewhere within the fears surrounding the baby, my selfish fear always manages to surface. I don't want to be alone.
Yes, I have family willing to help me with the process, but they cannot help me with the loneliness that I feel. I cannot share the joys of watching the baby grow with its father. And, my mother is completely unsupportive- especially emotionally. I am on my own.
I could take the cowards way out. I could abort and kill this life in me. But, that is not me. I don't kill. I am prepared to do what I can and must to survive and provide for my child. They did not ask to be brought to this world. But I was granted this gift to carry this being into life and I will protect it.
No one is ever ready to be a parent. The thoughts that run through my head scare me and they petrify me. I do have plans but at the same time I don't know what to do. I wish I had the baby's father to stand with me. I wish I had my mother to support me. And, it kills me inside to feel so alone. Because that is my greatest fear to be alone, but now so many more fears involving the baby are springing up. What if I do something wrong and the baby comes out unhealthy? What if I choose the wrong schools? What if the baby takes after its father? All of those ideas scare me- and so many more thoughts rage in my head.
And, somewhere within the fears surrounding the baby, my selfish fear always manages to surface. I don't want to be alone.
Sunday, November 2, 2014
I Have to Stay Strong
The past two years have changed my life. Not sure if for the better because honestly, I do not think I have ever been more hurt. I was in love with someone, who I thought cared for me- but it turns out I was just a side piece he was using. He told me many pretty lies and I believed them. And, he would have kept telling me the pretty lies except I told him one truth he could not run away from. I carry our child.
Needless to say he wasn't thrilled. He tried everything in the book to force me to abort but I stood strong and refused. Because while having a baby with me means the end of the world for him- for me the baby was made out of love.
I know all his reasons for not wanting to have a baby with me and I respect them all- they are very logical and make perfect sense. But they mean nothing to me. To me, what I have inside is alive. It has a heartbeat and it is growing. My first proud moment as a mother was hearing the strong heartbeat that the fetus had. It's hard for some women to hear their fetus' heartbeat after 5 or 6 weeks. But here I am, my fetus only four weeks and its heartbeat is so strong. And, I know it got its strength from its father. Because he is a physically strong person.
The only reason I would abort this opportunity is because its medical and health in the future would be at risk. I'm going to take a genetic disabilities test as soon as possible so I can know. If the tests come back negative for anything to worry about, I will keep the baby and raise it on my own. If the tests come back positive for something, then he will get his wish. And, I will abort.
This time, these moments of being a mother should all be filled with joy. But instead I am crushed from the truth. I am heartbroken and alone. I am afraid. my life was never easy. And, it never will be, especially so now. But I am willing to keep fighting.
Needless to say he wasn't thrilled. He tried everything in the book to force me to abort but I stood strong and refused. Because while having a baby with me means the end of the world for him- for me the baby was made out of love.
I know all his reasons for not wanting to have a baby with me and I respect them all- they are very logical and make perfect sense. But they mean nothing to me. To me, what I have inside is alive. It has a heartbeat and it is growing. My first proud moment as a mother was hearing the strong heartbeat that the fetus had. It's hard for some women to hear their fetus' heartbeat after 5 or 6 weeks. But here I am, my fetus only four weeks and its heartbeat is so strong. And, I know it got its strength from its father. Because he is a physically strong person.
The only reason I would abort this opportunity is because its medical and health in the future would be at risk. I'm going to take a genetic disabilities test as soon as possible so I can know. If the tests come back negative for anything to worry about, I will keep the baby and raise it on my own. If the tests come back positive for something, then he will get his wish. And, I will abort.
This time, these moments of being a mother should all be filled with joy. But instead I am crushed from the truth. I am heartbroken and alone. I am afraid. my life was never easy. And, it never will be, especially so now. But I am willing to keep fighting.
Saturday, September 13, 2014
The One Given Adventure
So, this is in the aftermath of watching a very sad movie in which lovers are torn apart by death. There is nothing special about this movie; it does not stand out from others with the same premise. But, since I seem to have the theme of "love" for my blogs, I decided to write something real quick.
I want to link the ideas of "Life is short." with "Love."
I believe in love. I believe in all kinds of love. To quote a favorite series of mine, "Love as thou wilt." I believe everyone should experience the heart racing, heart breaking, heart stopping kind of love. I had that love once, and while it is gone now, it was beautiful while it lasted. Love is just one of the many adventures that life offers.
And for so many of us, we live such boring lives. And, please, let us not try to lie to ourselves. We are born, we go to school, we study for jobs that in the end really don't make us happy, and then we die. Many of us die without having experienced any true thrill- any true happiness.
So, why can't we just allow ourselves the one given adventure? To fall in love? To be in love? To have love?
Love isn't a privilege; it isn't a commodity.
But the world now, treats it as such. Or, even worse- treats love, as if it is nothing.
"Love doesn't pay bills." So... does that mean it's not worth your time and effort? Why are bills more important than love? Bills don't make us happy- they NEVER will. But, love... can.
Nowadays, men and women play games with each other. The game of who can fall first. The game of who is stronger in staving off the feelings of love. The game of pretend and deceit. - It is disrespectful.
Why treat the one given adventure life makes available for us- like garbage? Why treat it so poorly? Did no one ever think to stop and wonder that maybe, just maybe- if we gave love the respect it deserves, that everyone would be happy? Happy because they were able to experience the adventure of love. To not bow in fear before the unknown, but to surrender in courage. To allow yourself to be vulnerable and trust in another soul?
To see..... that it IS beautiful.
Love is everywhere and available for anyone and everyone to have if they just allow themselves to give in to the unknown future.
We all know love can end terribly. Love is like life: it can end pleasantly or unpleasantly. And, what person in their right mind wants an unpleasant end? No one! So, what do we do to try and prevent it? We try to control every living waking moment of our lives. We cower and bow down to fear and as a result, live these boring lives.
Life should be full of life- exhilaration- adrenaline- real light in your eyes- twinkle in your smile- happiness. But, we can't have that, can we? We need money to do what we truly want. We need money to free and go on adventure.
So why not take the free adventure, that no business or corporation or government can put a price on? LOVE.
Why not seek it out? Why not be brave and go on an adventure? Give yourself over to the unknown and let your heart race with the fear that is can end in a way you cannot control? Why not take that gamble?
Life is short. People die everyday for every and any kind of reason. Could you really say that if you died today, you have ever loved? Did you ever give yourself over? Surrender to the unknown feelings and thoughts and choices that will affect your life if you loved? If not, then why are you alive? Why are you still breathing? Why are you just another worker bee in this world? Why are you acting just the same?
Give yourself over. Find love. Fall in love.
Remember back in high school, when you had no cares in the world? When you felt invincible? That is how you should be everyday of your life. Seek out that feeling you once had and hold onto it. That youthful naive courage is what you should always have no matter how old you are. Find that fire again. Use it.
I want to link the ideas of "Life is short." with "Love."
I believe in love. I believe in all kinds of love. To quote a favorite series of mine, "Love as thou wilt." I believe everyone should experience the heart racing, heart breaking, heart stopping kind of love. I had that love once, and while it is gone now, it was beautiful while it lasted. Love is just one of the many adventures that life offers.
And for so many of us, we live such boring lives. And, please, let us not try to lie to ourselves. We are born, we go to school, we study for jobs that in the end really don't make us happy, and then we die. Many of us die without having experienced any true thrill- any true happiness.
So, why can't we just allow ourselves the one given adventure? To fall in love? To be in love? To have love?
Love isn't a privilege; it isn't a commodity.
But the world now, treats it as such. Or, even worse- treats love, as if it is nothing.
"Love doesn't pay bills." So... does that mean it's not worth your time and effort? Why are bills more important than love? Bills don't make us happy- they NEVER will. But, love... can.
Nowadays, men and women play games with each other. The game of who can fall first. The game of who is stronger in staving off the feelings of love. The game of pretend and deceit. - It is disrespectful.
Why treat the one given adventure life makes available for us- like garbage? Why treat it so poorly? Did no one ever think to stop and wonder that maybe, just maybe- if we gave love the respect it deserves, that everyone would be happy? Happy because they were able to experience the adventure of love. To not bow in fear before the unknown, but to surrender in courage. To allow yourself to be vulnerable and trust in another soul?
To see..... that it IS beautiful.
Love is everywhere and available for anyone and everyone to have if they just allow themselves to give in to the unknown future.
We all know love can end terribly. Love is like life: it can end pleasantly or unpleasantly. And, what person in their right mind wants an unpleasant end? No one! So, what do we do to try and prevent it? We try to control every living waking moment of our lives. We cower and bow down to fear and as a result, live these boring lives.
Life should be full of life- exhilaration- adrenaline- real light in your eyes- twinkle in your smile- happiness. But, we can't have that, can we? We need money to do what we truly want. We need money to free and go on adventure.
So why not take the free adventure, that no business or corporation or government can put a price on? LOVE.
Why not seek it out? Why not be brave and go on an adventure? Give yourself over to the unknown and let your heart race with the fear that is can end in a way you cannot control? Why not take that gamble?
Life is short. People die everyday for every and any kind of reason. Could you really say that if you died today, you have ever loved? Did you ever give yourself over? Surrender to the unknown feelings and thoughts and choices that will affect your life if you loved? If not, then why are you alive? Why are you still breathing? Why are you just another worker bee in this world? Why are you acting just the same?
Give yourself over. Find love. Fall in love.
Remember back in high school, when you had no cares in the world? When you felt invincible? That is how you should be everyday of your life. Seek out that feeling you once had and hold onto it. That youthful naive courage is what you should always have no matter how old you are. Find that fire again. Use it.
Friday, September 5, 2014
The Only Rule(s) for Love
I've been trying to write an article about the rules for love. But... I can't. Because the truth is that the whole world has its views and beliefs about what being in love means and what it entails, but the hardcore truth is there is only one rule for love: Do not be responsible for the hurt done to the person you love.
Simply put: do not disrespect, dishonor, or belittle your significant other. And, I'm not just talking about romantic love. This rule is for all kinds of love. Love for your family. Love for your friends. Love for your lover. Just Do Not Hurt Them.
Yes, of course, the beliefs of society are also very good rules. Don't cheat. Always be there. Stand united. Etc. These are the ideals we all hope to have in any relationship. I mean afterall, who wants to be betrayed by someone they love or someone who claims to love them? No one, that's who.
I have this romanticized view on loving people. I love everyone with my whole heart and there is nothing I wouldn't do to help them. I would indeed sacrifice my life for them if needed. I know, I know. Many people say the same thing and of course don't follow through. But, believe it or not, I am one of the few people left alive that can love unconditionally.
Society has belittled emotions and feelings to be irrational and illogical. And, yes, I definitely agree that they are, but it does not make them any less important. How someone feels influences how they think- and that determines what kind of person they are. It is all linked.
People have become so selfish in this day and age. And, I think it is because they are afraid to be hurt. - Well, they should be. But, that doesn't mean they should hold themselves off or follow through self destructive tendencies.
Why cheat? If you love someone- shouldn't you have all you want and need in that person? What are you seeking elsewhere?
Always be there- If you expect your significant other to be there- you should be there for them in turn. It is only fair. And, yes. A relationship does need to be fair. It cannot be one sided. One person cannot be more important than another. Because, in the ideal world, no one person is more important than another.
Support your significant other in whatever endeavors they pursue. The world is full of people ready to put a person down. They do not need it from you. What they need from you is support. Always support people you love. Even if you think it is stupid and you disagree with every atom of your being. Support them. Because you never know how important it is to them.
In the end, I just simply advise that you just love the person with all you heart and do everything you possibly can to make them happy. Push aside the fear, because fear will get you nothing. Live and love as much as you can.
Simply put: do not disrespect, dishonor, or belittle your significant other. And, I'm not just talking about romantic love. This rule is for all kinds of love. Love for your family. Love for your friends. Love for your lover. Just Do Not Hurt Them.
Yes, of course, the beliefs of society are also very good rules. Don't cheat. Always be there. Stand united. Etc. These are the ideals we all hope to have in any relationship. I mean afterall, who wants to be betrayed by someone they love or someone who claims to love them? No one, that's who.
I have this romanticized view on loving people. I love everyone with my whole heart and there is nothing I wouldn't do to help them. I would indeed sacrifice my life for them if needed. I know, I know. Many people say the same thing and of course don't follow through. But, believe it or not, I am one of the few people left alive that can love unconditionally.
Society has belittled emotions and feelings to be irrational and illogical. And, yes, I definitely agree that they are, but it does not make them any less important. How someone feels influences how they think- and that determines what kind of person they are. It is all linked.
People have become so selfish in this day and age. And, I think it is because they are afraid to be hurt. - Well, they should be. But, that doesn't mean they should hold themselves off or follow through self destructive tendencies.
Why cheat? If you love someone- shouldn't you have all you want and need in that person? What are you seeking elsewhere?
Always be there- If you expect your significant other to be there- you should be there for them in turn. It is only fair. And, yes. A relationship does need to be fair. It cannot be one sided. One person cannot be more important than another. Because, in the ideal world, no one person is more important than another.
Support your significant other in whatever endeavors they pursue. The world is full of people ready to put a person down. They do not need it from you. What they need from you is support. Always support people you love. Even if you think it is stupid and you disagree with every atom of your being. Support them. Because you never know how important it is to them.
In the end, I just simply advise that you just love the person with all you heart and do everything you possibly can to make them happy. Push aside the fear, because fear will get you nothing. Live and love as much as you can.
Friday, August 15, 2014
Primal SoulMating and Monogamy
This day and age, society has destroyed the meaning of the word, just like it did with love. Soulmate is now a word thrown around everyday by people who don't understand what it truly means to be a soulmate. If asked what a 'soulmate' is, most of the human population would say something similar to or along the lines of two people destined to be together by fate; two halves of heart meeting and uniting to be together forever in love and the rest of their lives.
Romantics believe in this notion and realists scoff at it. I harbor both sentiments. I believe that soulmates exist but not in the romantic way. Well, how is that possible- to believe in soulmates but not in a romantic sense? Well, because for me, soulmates are the most real form of love out there. Being a soulmate means you have compassion and empathy and an endless love for your significant other- even if you don't want to.
The new age idea is that monogamy is unnatural. Immediately, I say- you are wrong. Why? Because there are in fact, several other animal species, besides our own, that live the monogamous lifestyle. Penguins. Seahorses. Wolves. Gibbons. Swans. Angelfish. Vultures. Turtledoves. Eagles. And a few more. So there, clearly monogamy is a very natural thing.
I personally think that those who think monogamy is unnatural- it is because they never witnessed a successful monogamous relationship. And, it's sad, but this day and age- romance has been lost because people fear to open to it. They would much rather sleep around, get STIs and STDs, have babby mamas and baby daddys. And, sure they can talk up the free lifestyle- but in the end the sad truth is- they are still lonely and one day they will wake up old and alone, with no one special to share anything with- all because they rejected the idea of monogamy. And the irony is, they rejected it so they wouldn't get hurt, but aren't they hurt being alone?
Now, let me be clear, I am not saying that having a soulmate is the answer. And, I am not saying that having a soulmate is better. What I am saying is that there is a different form of soulmate that isn't in books. It isn't the kind of stuff romance novels are made of. It is an ancient form of love. It is primal. It is a part of the human species' instinct that was lost over time as civilizations and societies began to grow.
Primal Soulmating is not love at first sight. Primal Soulmating is not two souls predetermined to meet and unite. Primal Soulmating is not a love connection between two opposites or two personality in-sync people. Primal Soulmating is not romantic. Primal Soulmating is the bond formed when one truly loves another for no purpose. There are no reasons for this love, but you feel it. You are inclined to stay true to it, protect, nourish, nurture, and develop this love even if it not wanted. You cannot control who you love.
A Primal Soulmate is often misunderstood and confused with someone who will not "let go" when the relationship is over. A Primal Soulmate is bonded against their will to another and often resent the bond. But, because it is their soulmate, they try to make it work.
So far, Primal Soulmating sounds like your typical love. Well, here is where it starts to get different. If and when a Primal Soulmating is broken, the broken heart cannot be healed. It ceases to work and it dies. The Soulmate in extreme heartbroken cases- literally dies or in some cases, stays alone for the rest of their life. When you hear someone say, they had a great love once but are still alone now- chances are they are one of the people still in touch with their primal instincts to have that connection.
Primal Soulmating is a curse. It's not something people should want or desire. Because the pain caused by a broken one is irreversible. Every heartbeat is painful and it can last for years until the numbness takes over or the heart dies. Or, if that Soulmate is lucky- they find another they are bonded to and hopefully, that love will last.
But sometimes, Primal Soulmating is a kind of love that some people should have or even deserve. Because Primal Soulmating is the purest and most selfless love in existence and if everyone loved like they did- the world would be perfect.
I fear, I haven't explained all too well what it is Primal Soulmating is. All I can say is, if you are capable of Primal Soulmating- you'll know. And, I wish you luck in love and to never have heartbreak, because I know the pain. I am one of the few capable of Primal Soulmating and for me- it has been nothing but a curse.
Romantics believe in this notion and realists scoff at it. I harbor both sentiments. I believe that soulmates exist but not in the romantic way. Well, how is that possible- to believe in soulmates but not in a romantic sense? Well, because for me, soulmates are the most real form of love out there. Being a soulmate means you have compassion and empathy and an endless love for your significant other- even if you don't want to.
The new age idea is that monogamy is unnatural. Immediately, I say- you are wrong. Why? Because there are in fact, several other animal species, besides our own, that live the monogamous lifestyle. Penguins. Seahorses. Wolves. Gibbons. Swans. Angelfish. Vultures. Turtledoves. Eagles. And a few more. So there, clearly monogamy is a very natural thing.
I personally think that those who think monogamy is unnatural- it is because they never witnessed a successful monogamous relationship. And, it's sad, but this day and age- romance has been lost because people fear to open to it. They would much rather sleep around, get STIs and STDs, have babby mamas and baby daddys. And, sure they can talk up the free lifestyle- but in the end the sad truth is- they are still lonely and one day they will wake up old and alone, with no one special to share anything with- all because they rejected the idea of monogamy. And the irony is, they rejected it so they wouldn't get hurt, but aren't they hurt being alone?
Now, let me be clear, I am not saying that having a soulmate is the answer. And, I am not saying that having a soulmate is better. What I am saying is that there is a different form of soulmate that isn't in books. It isn't the kind of stuff romance novels are made of. It is an ancient form of love. It is primal. It is a part of the human species' instinct that was lost over time as civilizations and societies began to grow.
Primal Soulmating is not love at first sight. Primal Soulmating is not two souls predetermined to meet and unite. Primal Soulmating is not a love connection between two opposites or two personality in-sync people. Primal Soulmating is not romantic. Primal Soulmating is the bond formed when one truly loves another for no purpose. There are no reasons for this love, but you feel it. You are inclined to stay true to it, protect, nourish, nurture, and develop this love even if it not wanted. You cannot control who you love.
A Primal Soulmate is often misunderstood and confused with someone who will not "let go" when the relationship is over. A Primal Soulmate is bonded against their will to another and often resent the bond. But, because it is their soulmate, they try to make it work.
So far, Primal Soulmating sounds like your typical love. Well, here is where it starts to get different. If and when a Primal Soulmating is broken, the broken heart cannot be healed. It ceases to work and it dies. The Soulmate in extreme heartbroken cases- literally dies or in some cases, stays alone for the rest of their life. When you hear someone say, they had a great love once but are still alone now- chances are they are one of the people still in touch with their primal instincts to have that connection.
Primal Soulmating is a curse. It's not something people should want or desire. Because the pain caused by a broken one is irreversible. Every heartbeat is painful and it can last for years until the numbness takes over or the heart dies. Or, if that Soulmate is lucky- they find another they are bonded to and hopefully, that love will last.
But sometimes, Primal Soulmating is a kind of love that some people should have or even deserve. Because Primal Soulmating is the purest and most selfless love in existence and if everyone loved like they did- the world would be perfect.
I fear, I haven't explained all too well what it is Primal Soulmating is. All I can say is, if you are capable of Primal Soulmating- you'll know. And, I wish you luck in love and to never have heartbreak, because I know the pain. I am one of the few capable of Primal Soulmating and for me- it has been nothing but a curse.
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