Death is never fair, neither is true karma- So take what you want.

     I was talking with a coworker of mine. She said she recently began speaking with an old elementary friend that she lost touch with. While reunions are touching and sweet, this was not. But, not because they realized how they changed and had little in common- that was not the case. The reason why the reunion was not sweet was because my coworker learned that her friend had been shot four times by her baby's daddy- but she survived- only, to be diagnosed with brain cancer. ..... That is some serious bullshit.
     How do you survive four bullets only to be diagnosed with brain cancer? Why does life spare you the quick death of bleeding out, only to give you a prolonged miserable suffering with brain cancer?
     Now, you may say- well maybe they deserved it? Karma is a bitch. My coworker says this woman was good, and since I don't know her personally, I have no choice but to believe that this woman was good. So going along with that idea- why? Why do the good people always suffer and the bad people get whatever they want?
     My coworker said, if you think in the biblical sense, it makes sense that bad people are happy because this is their true prize. They have earthly happiness, but in the afterlife will be punished. So then I said what about the good people? When do the good people get what they deserve? When they die? That's bullshit. How am I going to be happy when I'm dead? I'll be dead. Can I enjoy the sunny beach when I'm dead? Can I enjoy silk sheets on a California sized bed when I'm dead? And, what about when I am reincarnated? I'm going to have to go through all the bullshit of learning morality and such just to decided whether or not I want to lead a good life and not get what I deserve or leading a life of selfishness and crime and worrying about my shitty afterlife. What part of all this is fair?
     Following the reincarnation idea: If I lead a life of good and don't get what I deserve in this life- then I am supposed to get it in my next. But following the rule of reincarnation- I won't remember who I was and what I did so, how do I know I truly deserve what has happened to me or what I have? I mean this train of thought also goes for if I chose to be bad. Because likewise, if I have a shitty second life, I'm going to wonder what the hell I did in my previous life to deserve this one.
     So why not lead a life of crime if I can get away with it? Why not use people? Why not take what I want and what I can get and even more? Why do I have to be good, when karma isn't guaranteed? Why do I have to be good and suffer while everyone else gets to play? Why do I have to be good when everyone else is bad? Why do I have to be good?