Friday, February 6, 2015

The Rumor Mill

     Rumors are the life blood of society. Some rumors are spread by mistake and purely unintentional, while others are spread purposely. Society feeds on rumors; for without rumors, there would be nothing really to discuss.
     Ugly rumors are spread by people with a vendetta, whose hearts are filled with hate. I know this. I may have done so myself. I am after all only human. But, I do try to refrain.
     There is always one rumor flying around about me. And, I am very well aware of what it is. I am always rumored to be a whore. And, of course, it is not true. I have in fact only had four sexual partners. For my age range, that is a very low number.
     So, why then, do people say I am a whore? Because I hang out with the male gender too much. Plain and simple. I hang out with males, because female mentality is beyond my scope of tolerance. I think more along the male mindset, then I do female. Hell, I act more like a male than I do female. Being around men has just proven to be less drama and emotional. Being around males is just more chill and relaxing. We play video games, talk, watch movies, joke around, etc. It's hard to find females that do the same without having a sudden debate about a relationship and morals.
     So I like to talk to and hang out with males. And, it threatens other females. It makes them think that I am after their partner. No. No. I don't want your partner. I just want to chill and be friends. If I wanted your partner sexually. I do like to believe that I would not attempt anything because I frown upon cheating.
     But, I am not to be trusted, according to those females, because men are not to be trusted. And, therefore I cannot be trusted to be left alone with a male. When in fact, I have slept in the same bed with men and never so much as shared a kiss, let alone felt up or cuddled or had sex.
     I can sit here and defend myself until I am blue in the face. But, rumors are rumors and people listen to those more than truth. Everyone has "proof" or "statements" supporting rumors. But the fact is most rumors are lies, no matter what support they have. And, it is pettiness to continue with rumors when deep down you know the truth.
     Rumors are damaging to say the least. They can take down innocent people. They can hurt people that don't deserve it. Fact is, only petty people spread lies and rumors. And, it is always people you only "somewhat" know, because people that do know you fully are either your friends who disbelieve the rumors or the betrayers that started it.
     I have nothing to hide. I have no reasons to lie. I make it a point to not give cause for speculation because I want to avoid drama at all costs. I despise webs of deceit and would rather not ever play a role in weaving them. But, I did. I did spin one, because I trusted the wrong person. And from trusting the wrong person much hate has been brewed because of the lies. Fingers point left and right blaming him and her. When in reality, if we all just refused to lie and pretend none of this would have happened. And there would be no rumors or scathing remarks on anyone's integrity.